01/28/2010 02:30:56

well I am quite proud of my little weirdo self! Yep Yep Yep!

My goal last year was to "face down" head on, some of the hardest issues, in my life, that cause me to have anxiety or fears of negativity. I got all but one done last year. and the last goal was NOT a fear! Just a very involved mess lol.

Because I did this and relinquished control, a hard one for me! Let me say, I am looking and feeling so much better about our finances then we have in years! What a miracle! What a huge huge relief! Do know, it was not easy for me. I did  alot of crying and biting my lips but I took each project and got my self together and tackled them.

SEveral people have incredibly supported me and helped push me forward..like Roselea, Michelle, Tracey and My buddy Brenda. I could not have done this alone and as I think on what I just typed I realize that is important as well! I asked for help this time. When I reached out someone was there. It is hard for me to ask. FAcing that was as hard.

Well next project...after its complete will mean I will be getting married sometime this year!!! Cannot believe it! I was the girl who said she would never marry! I love my independence...lol I laugh because here I am unable to get around hardly at all, need help dressing, cannot cook for myself, excetra and I said that! HA! I have spirit and guts I tell you.

I cannot wait to see what this next year brings, I trully cannot.

 

10/23/2009 00:03:02

Zed is at it again!! Zed my wonderful furry youngest baby has learned a new fun trick. He can flush the toilet himself. Yep. Charlie and I were sitting in the living room and heard the toilet flushing, from the 2nd bath in the 2nd bedroom. WE looked at eachother and I said there is that toilet going off again, its so odd. Then we saw Zed walking out of the bedroom. lol  Well Charlie caught him. He sits on the back of the toilet and flushes it then watches the water swirl around. Yesterday I heard it flush 4 times. Charlie tends to leave the sit up..while I always put it down, then he doesnt do it. Charlie says he learned this from watching me. lol. This cat is way too smart. Zed also tries to get charlies video game creatures to move. He watches the monitor, when charlie leaves it for a few minutes, and then steps on  the keys of the keyboard. hahaha. No kidding!! Then attacks the monitor when he sees things moving. what a little smarty pants.

Today I was not doing well, and he was being a very vigilant nursemaid, watching over me. this is very uncharacteristic of him. lol. Several of my friends think he is a reincarnated human.  What do you think of this idea? I didnt think this could be possible but to be honest isnt all things possible? HE has given me such joy.

 

10/05/2009 04:43:26

I did something quite difficult for me and reached out to an old college pal, 2 days ago. Many years ago I lost track of her, but had some info as to her parents location, just didnt find where I put their phone number. So I caled anyone lol, with her last name. Low and behold, first call got her brother's phone!!! Well her brother's girlfriend actually. I was able to explain how well I knew her with details and that gave me her cell number.

What a fantastic experience. This person really affected my life in many wonderful ways so now I am going to take some time to write that to her, as well as see her in a few months time! So excited. Mostly because she was so free spirited, word described me in my high school days, lol, plus she never ever judge me. Was always protective of me and gave me a place to stay when I was traveling as a photographer. I feel so blessed to have her in my life, even if its just a short while. I think I overwhelmed her by saying how much I loved her. lol I forgot back then we didnt say I love you as easily as I do now. Hope she is open to me.

I guess that was the fear all along, will that person accept me, will that person still like me, will we have common interests..its exciting to me,,,and its like findning family when I no longer really have family. A treasure hunt to be sure.