The holidays and I have had a weird relationship. 

For the most part, I have dreaded the arrival of the holiday season which seems to arrive earlier and earlier each year.  I would turn on the radio only to hear the songs of the season to be played the day after Halloween! 

I look back at times past with dread, admiration and appreciation.  I was a Jehovah's Witness for nearly ten years which meant I would not celebrate holidays for they preached it was against God.  I learned to be adaptable and "go with the flow."  This usually meant that I would go out to dinner by myself or with other Jehovah's Witnesses who had family who celebrated the evil holidays.

Now, I am learning to adapt to a new holiday tradition.  I am slowly healing from the past holiday family drama where my family origin would cause chaos.  I am learning new holiday traditions.  I know it is not easy for some to celebrate the holidays.  The past does play a factor but time does heal all wounds...slowly but surely life can be enjoyed even around the holidays...